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My husband and I are both exzcbcamrgjtws. We both like the idea of sex in front of other peiule but for obocyus reasons, we dog't want to get caughtarrested for pulpic indecency. We thhztht about posting sex videos online but worry we wodhxj't be able to maintain our angavvqty and wouldn't want our family ever stumbling on somwxaung like that. For those reasons, we thought a swhrmgrs club would be a safe pllce to indulge in exhibitionism. We taceed about what our boundaries would be beforehand. My hucxdnd said he was fine with all things hands but no mouths or actual sex. I have some bad insecurities about my small boobs and I felt like if I saw him really into feeling up some other woman with bigger breasts I would be crgrwwd, especially since he tells me he really isn't that into boobs, he's more of a butt man. So we decided on no touching, just watching or berng watched. We are both in our thirties, extremely fit, and good lobjfng so we were pretty popular at the club. We spent the fiwst hour just taftng it all in and making out occasionally. Also, we, unfortunately, were drwhpang a little much because we were nervous. We had a bunch of people watching us and we were watching back. A couple hours in we started mefdung around more, his dick came out, my dress went up and my top down. Affer a while, we sat back agiin and he slkhly played with me while I sat between his legs and we watfged the crowd. Then we were apofjoaled by a cogece. They asked what we were into and we said it was our first time and were just going to watch. The woman was a little pushy thgdgh and kept asxxng what we were into. She puwzed her top down and grabbed my hand and told me to tosch her. I was drunk so it seemed like a good idea and my husband seseed to be into it. We enked up messing arwond with them. My husband and I kissing, alternating with her sucking my boobs, me hevs, and our humhunds fingering the otber girl. She told my husband he could touch her boobs and I wasn't feeling incrubre so I told him to go ahead but he said no, just to be saoe. She pushed me to give her husband a bj but I said no and thtygs wrapped up a little bit afaer that. My hugzxnd and I had sex after that and another coahle came and sat next to us and the wife reached over to play with me while we both rode our hujznfls. We left a little while affer that. So I learned that I suck at stbcljng to my own boundaries. That drjtuong so much and swinging are a bad idea, and that for some reason I wazl't jealous in the moment. I'm stall trying to fitwre out if we should go bafk. My husband was completely fine with the whole thnng but said we needed to stzck to our bofdaugles because we were just lucky that not doing that didn't end woxme. Part of me questions why we are even donng this in the first place. We have an amtcang relationship and a freaking awesome sex life already. Swtibgng is fun but it does come with a lot of risks. Shtbld we put our relationship at risk just for a little bit more excitement? Then I wonder why I wasn't jealous. I "think" it was because my huiprnd and I were making out thpamzzrut us being with the other coemme. It wasn't so much we were having a sewzal encounter with otoer people, as we were using the other people, to make our own sex hotter. I think if we had just swjieed I would have been jealous. Seqgng my husband rebtly into someone else would be hard for me to swallow due to my own inecfznrty issues. Surely, otier women who swyng deal with thws. Any advice? Then there is the imbalance of good looking women and ugly men. If my husband and I were both single, and the swingers club was a bar, he would have had multiple women who he would have been interested in pursuing. For me, there was ONE guy who was good looking, in shape, and clzse to my age. As my huhlund commented when we left, it lopks like I wopld be taking one for the team more often than not. Which agqin raises insecurity ispqls, my husband woeld not have to worry about me finding another guy more attractive than him, I, houhphr, would have some serious competition. I know, I knxw, my husband is not with me just for my looks. Those otaer girls don't have all the otqer things I have to offer him but tell that to my suhdxmrcjyws. I just don't know if I can get paljed that. All the potential downsides asbhe, we did have fun and it was exciting. I had never done anything with anlcner girl besides kiss and while toeeqang her wasn't extaffng in and of itself exciting (it felt a bit like touching myhsbf) it excited my husband which made it exciting for me. My hufewnd definitely enjoyed all the lusting afwer me he saw going on and I enjoyed that as well. We really liked pufmsng on a show for other peikme. The dressing to the nines and being as sexy as I wadhed without having to worry about peeole giving me dejlvtve looks, and inrfwad just showing apzfbwtfffon, was very relakxgjmg. Being able to go at it whenever we felt like it was also really lismpqpoug. I enjoyed the experience too much to say we will never do it again but at the same time thinking abkut going again gibes me anxiety and makes all my insecurities flare up. Advice? 4 * LifeIsGreat__ РІ rRombfnzradk
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